God’s Chisel

Journal Entry from October 20, 2018

This morning as I sat with the Lord I read through several chapters of Hosea in the Old Testament. During this time, Hosea 6:1-2 stuck out to me for the first time. The verses talk about how God tears us down, but is our healer; that He wounds us, but will bind up our wounds. When I read these verses, they seemed to tie back to some of the feelings I had in Haiti of feeling like God was punching me in the stomach only to then pull me in for a hug. It felt hypocritical and manipulative of God, and these verses showed me a biblical reference to what I was feeling. How can God be the source of my pain, but also the only antidote for it? It seems unfair and very much like a trap. 

I spent more time continuing to read through Hosea 6 while asking God why He does that. Luckily for me, He answered me in a very loving and patient way. I read down to verse 6 and 7 where God says, “For I desire faithful love and not sacrifice, the knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings. But they, like Adam, have violated the covenant; there they have betrayed me.” …That was it, ‘I desire faithful love.’ In that moment, God brought to mind a YouTube video I watched years ago when I was in college. The video is called ‘God’s Chisel’ by the Skit Guys (a hilarious Christian duo worth checking out by the way). In the video, Tommy asks God to change him based off of the verse from Ephesians 2:10. In response, “God” shows up with a chisel and a hammer to begin crafting Tommy into the original image God created him to be in. What I was specifically reminded of from the video was the moment where God is chiseling away at Tommy, and Tommy stops him because the process hurts too much. God, however, tells Tommy that he won’t stop until his work is complete because he is a God that loves his children and disciplines them as such. God in his faithful love is working in us to bring us into a faithful love with Him.

God reconciled my feelings about verses 1-2 and the feelings I had since Haiti by explaining through Hosea 6:6 and my memory of the “God’s Chisel” video. When we submit our lives to God and surrender all, He is faithful and just to continue the good works He has started in us until they are complete. He allows us to be put into circumstances that tear us down so that the sins we continue to run back to can be chiseled away, and in the process build us back up into the image He has intended for us to bare. Even in circumstances that are not circumstances of punishment or results of sin, God  can use any circumstances to bring us to our knees before His throne. He is the Good Father than does not withhold the rod from His children (Proverbs 23:13-14). He is determined to shape and mold us into who we were created to be, and loves us enough to not withhold anything from us. He desires to make us great, but we must first endure the pain of having our old, sin-filled selves chiseled away. I realized through this revelation that I needed to change my perspective from God being unjust or unfair to recognizing how much we are undeserving of any good. We deserve to be torn down, but we have a gracious God that does not stop there. He won’t stop until we move from a mindset of works/sacrifice to one of love, adoration, and knowledge of the Lord. God is a good Father. I now realize that I need to start seeing my circumstances through the lenses of God’s character and truth, rather than looking at God’s character through the lenses of my circumstances. My circumstances may change, but my God never will. 

I later went to find the video and watch it again for the first time in years. To my amazement, the video was almost word for word how I felt throughout the last month, and honestly hit a lot of truths about my sin. God helped me to realize the pain I have been feeling is His chiseling, but it’s in love not manipulation. God knows my desire and surrender to Him, He is being faithful to His promises of making me new in Him while I have been fighting for control of my life. It’s overwhelming how patient and loving He has been throughout this past month while I have been grumbling and pointing blame at Him. Although all of these things are not a first time revelation, my understanding of God’s love has grown deeper during my time here in South Africa.

The Skit Guys video should be shown below, and is definitely worth watching if you have never seen it before. 🙂

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